Everything is FUCKED

January 13, 1999

In as far as my academic life goes: I'm FUCKED. I have an essay due in exactly 48 hours and I don't even have enough resources. This is where I STOP procrastinating. Too bad I had to learn the lesson so late.

(somewhat later)

Serial killers--and mass murderers, too, as they seem to go hand in hand--are fucked. They're some scary SOBs. I don't get it. So, it's that they're disenfranchised, learning-disabled, repressed social climbing ex-bed wetters whose parents beat them, who liked torturing and dismembering animals and secretly keeping their carcasses before sending them to juvenile hall where they were either exposed to violent porn (thereby feeding a desire for nubile, beautiful women) or sodomized in the shower, causing them to embrace latent homosexuality? And that's what makes serial killer?

And nobody noticed before the mad killing sprees and the accumulated 'souvenirs'?

(somewhat later)

Yes! Major mental breakthrough! Not that I understand why they kill, but I can at least formulate a provisional thesis: "Sick fuckers though they may be, there are actually many factors which all contribute--in varying degrees between each individual case--to the development of a serial killer. Research suggests the most likely correlation to be the almost unvarying socioeconomic insecurity combined with unsuccessful attempts at joining a higher social class."

Okay, so maybe the part about them being sick fuckers is inappropriate. I might change that.